I don't have that many followers that publicly follow. And two of my followers are myself.
I'm actually surprised anyone at all reads my blog. I've always kept a journal or diary, so a blog is like a natural extension of that.
I am not ignorant or naive.
I know predators exist.
I just hit the "stats" button on my blog account and found that a lot of blog hits were because of the words "naked, boy, children, potty, poop."
I think I might throw up, cry and scream.
I felt like I had to delete a picture of my son and his little bum using the potty for the first time. I deleted it.
I can't make my face stop scrunching..it's so involuntary.
I can't and don't want to even begin to imagine what these people are using these pictures for.
I love writing and this won't deter me from doing so. However, I now have to be careful of what pictures I post. This makes me so sad. This was such a happy place for me to be and share my thoughts. Honestly, it's going to take a little while for me not to associate blogging with predators trying to look at my little boy. And I know I can't look at my stats again.
This is such a weird feeling...to feel violated by people you don't know, who are across oceans and using a computer to do so. Ugh.